So here I am on week two of sobriety and God it fucking sucks.

What do people do when they aren't getting loaded? Rodney Dangerfield asked in Easy Money. I still have no clue.

It's an easy question to ask in Aberdeen Washington. Literally everything here revolves around drinking or partying. There was a study done in the 1980's and it found that Aberdeen has the worst drug, alcohol, and suicide rate in the United States when compared to other towns of similar size. I can believe it. Remember Kurt Cobain was from here, and you know how fucked up he was.

So here I sit. It sucks. All my friends drink. Most are alcoholics or borderline alcoholics. Others use drugs. Same goes for my family. Coworkers - same thing.

I can't even go fishing and get away from it. Yesterday I was throwing spinners on the Wishkah River, and two guys show up and start fishing. Of course they brought with them the much needed 18 pack of beer, and were passing a joint back and forth.  I finally just left not being able to handle it any longer. It's just too tempting to be around.

I remember Ozzy saying while drunk, that sobriety sucks. I think he's right. So does being an alcoholic. I look back at my life and between the years of 12 and 33 there was nothing or little to show for it. In August 2002 when I gave up drinking after nearly dying from it, til now I managed to accomplish a hell of a lot. Two degrees, honor rolls, honor society, a good job, and engagement (the engagement wasn't so good lol). Thats a hell of a lot. I wonder what I can do with twenty years of sobriety. I already know what I can do with twenty years of living in a haze. 

More to come

Hopefully