So I woke up late today, figuring that I didn't really have too much to do. Considering the fact that it was a Saturday, I made my phone call home (as i do every Saturday because calls to the US are expensive). My brother, to my shock and dismay, has informed me that there is already Halloween stuff in stores. HALLOWEEN. WTF????!!! It's August!! Do stores really think that far ahead? Well, i guess I can understand. Everyone wants to throw a kick ass Halloween party, so why not get ready early?

Ahh, so everywhere i look (internet, tv, radio, etc...) I'm seeing/hearing adds about "male enhancing" pills!! Ok, I didn't realize that you guys out there were THAT sensitive about that area...It's not a big deal! Girls don't care! It's pretty frustrating to see guys so obsessed over perfection. Hell, what IS perfection? We've been programmed by society to believe in one image of beauty and perfection. Well i don't care if it's 6 inches or 14 inches (well, maybe not 14), because it doesn't matter! Geez.

So today i was thinking about how cool it would be to meet all of you :) Even though we're on like, 3 different continents it would still be fun. I'm sure some of you would become my best friends! Idk, it seems kinda weird, but i do consider you guys my friends. I don't have many because i'm, well, weird. Like you guys :) Apparently Attrage is coming to mooch off me, move into my dorm, and take over my tv lol. I wasn't aware of this until recently! Haa, i'm pretty excited! Of course, i'll make him pay me rent. And he'll have to get a job. And I will be teaching him Irish Gaelic lol. Maybe he should just stay in Aussieland and live among the platypus and bushman :D

This year I have a new dormmate. She hasn't moved in yet, and i thinkk her name is Allyssa. Idk, i can't remember. She's not moving in till Tuesday. I'm really sad that i'm not roomies with Lindsey anymore :( It's hard to lose your dormmate. She's my best friend. She lives in Dublin with her family, so i went and stayed with them for a bit when i got back here. She says she's going to give me a key to her dorm so i can surprise her!

Well anyways. This is kinda a pointless blog of mine.

So today i was thinking about how much i'd like to start over. How much of my life I'd like to change. My whole life has been one unfortunte accident, and my blessings have turned into curses. For example. My parents are veryyy wealthy and because of that i was forced to grow up faster. I attended my parents' parties, did 16 beauty pageants, and went to a private school. Growing up, I had a body guard. So did my little brother. It was hard to make friends, let alone date. I think in high school i MAYBE had 2 boyfriends. My parents pushed me aside, so i delved into the world of horror movies when i was veryy young. My dad had a passion for them, so i snuck some of them. My brother is the same way. I would go down to San Diego to visit my mother's family, and while i was there they let me run around with my cousins. But after the shark attack, everything changed. From that day on, they smothered me with protection.

I never had independance till I was almost 19, when i finally told my parents i was going to a college in Ireland. They said ok. My social life has improved, but i still don't date. It's hard to find someone who can tolerate me for long periods of time, while also maintaining the same interests and passions as me. My obsession with horror scares off most people, and due to the fact that i have very contriversial views, i offend more. Guys think i'm a nerd, because all i talk about is horror, politics, and science. I haven't had a date in almost 3 years, and my parents wouldn't let me see the only guy i've ever truely cared for. I wish, like most girls, that i could be different. That i was prettier, less nerdy, and that i was elegant instead of clumsy. The fact that I'm schitzophrenic doesn't help either. I wish that a boy could see me as something beautiful, instead of a freak. But i know it won't happen.

I know nobody will read this, and if you ARE reading this you probably think i'm some spoiled emo bitch. Well, i'm not. I know nobody cares, but i thought that I might as well write SOMETHING down. I need to get it out.